This is such a loaded question. It's kind of exhausting to think about, too; it's not as if I hadn't thought about it long before now--I imagine I'm far from alone there. There are a couple of things that, I mean, I don't think they would stop me from ever logging in. No, that would be pretty extreme, especially if I knew my friends were back. And even if they weren't back, all of the bad things I can imagine could probably be contrasted by some good things too, and reasons to log in and play.
There are some things that would make me very sad to see. And some of those things would be inevitable if the game returned. For instance, of course, Paragon Studios is no more. Our dev team, they're gone. I've never been such a huge fan of a dev team, and I don't expect them to ever come back, even if City of Heroes does.
Someone recently corrected me when I referred to the game world, the fiction, as the heart of the game. They said the community was the heart of the game. And I immediately agreed, but only halfway. I think our dev team was the other half.
I don't know how to explain why I connected to City of Heroes the way that I did. No game of any kind has ever reached into me the way City of Heroes did. And this is coming from a guy who was already a veteran MMO player before stumbling into City of Heroes in March, 2009. I doubt I'll ever connect with and invest in another MMO like that. Not because I'm gun shy--I'd love to have another similar experience. I'd be open to it. But it's a chemistry thing. And even the devs agreed, City of Heroes wasn't just built, it kind of fell together over the years. It was a mix of love, sweat, and luck.
I am really, really angry with NCSoft. What's interesting is, I wasn't exactly angry with them in the beginning. I was too busy seeking to understand them. Then, too busy just being devastated. Then, too busy trying not to think about it, thinking about other things. As my head cleared and time marched on a bit, I would have expected to become more understanding of the situation. But instead, I seem to grow angrier and more upset with NCSoft as time wears on. Not because I haven't let go or accepted or whatever--I've done both. Or maybe I haven't, heh! Ah well.
One thing's for sure, it is what it is.