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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #160 on: December 11, 2012, 03:49:33 PM »
Gotta learn CoHdemo myself.

Hee hee! Good to see, Celtic. I'm kind'a... reassured, you bein' a female and all, that your characters dress provocatively. Feel a little less guilty about one or two of mine.

Watched a couple of videos from Blade and Soul. Loathe the character models and slutty clothes, but oh man, I'm jealous of that graphics engine! CoH 2 could have been amazing.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #161 on: December 11, 2012, 04:22:23 PM »
I dreamed about Champions Online last night.  It fits in this topic because what I dreamed is that I discovered that I could use my CoH costume files in CO.  "Oh, of course!" I thought in the dream, "They're both originally by Cryptic, so naturally the costume files are compatible."

.... needless to say, when I woke up, I seriously doubted that it would work (and it didn't, of course), but that didn't stop me from trying it anyway. (Two different ways of trying it, even - I opened one of the costume images as a text file and replaced all the relevant text with the text from a CoH .costume file)

I was disappointed despite myself.

I miss my characters, my Other Selves, is what I'm saying here.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #162 on: December 11, 2012, 04:51:23 PM »
Gotta learn CoHdemo myself.

Hee hee! Good to see, Celtic. I'm kind'a... reassured, you bein' a female and all, that your characters dress provocatively. Feel a little less guilty about one or two of mine.

Watched a couple of videos from Blade and Soul. Loathe the character models and slutty clothes, but oh man, I'm jealous of that graphics engine! CoH 2 could have been amazing.

Like my grandma always said... "If ya got it, flaunt it.".  Showy but not pornographic showy, if you know what I mean.  Hence why normal bust size and not torpedo size lol  ;)
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #163 on: December 11, 2012, 07:36:27 PM »
I thought that i would handle the closure of coh well.  After all, there are all kinds of other games out there to play.  However, the closer the big day came, the more I realized how much my beloved Paragon City would be missed.  I had been protecting the citizens of Paragon since 2004.  I have had several lapses....the whole other games to try thing.  I had always returned.  I was all set to resume my VIP status in the fall...until I couldn't.  I wanted to vent my rage in the coh forums...but since i was not VIP, I couldn't.  I wanted to revive my old sg for a final round of glory for the end of days...but since the announcement, most fled....so I couldn't.  I finally realized that all of these "I couldn't" moments, signified the greatest loss of all.  I no longer had the choice to enjoy my characters, my friends, or my City of Heroes.  My toggles have dropped.  Perma stun has set in.  Malta wins in the end.  I have been drained.

Hopefully, this mess gets sorted out with a return to Paragon.  Like I tell my buddies at the GURPS table...If you have dice you have a chance.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #164 on: December 11, 2012, 09:29:56 PM »
Like my grandma always said... "If ya got it, flaunt it.".  Showy but not pornographic showy, if you know what I mean.  Hence why normal bust size and not torpedo size lol  ;)

Torpedoes AWAY! :D
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #165 on: December 12, 2012, 12:20:59 AM »
Right with you, Alpha. I got caught in one of my occasional breaks from the game when the announcement hit. (How hard is it to give us notice?) It really got in the way. But don't worry about venting on the official boards, the place's death spiral was uuuug-lee!

"Showy but not pornographic showy, if you know what I mean."

I was rather proud when someone said to "Colette," "at last! A female character with realistic proportions!"   8)  Mind, one of my other characters went around in a thong, so I'm not completely off the hook.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #166 on: December 12, 2012, 12:39:01 AM »
"Showy but not pornographic showy, if you know what I mean."

I was rather proud when someone said to "Colette," "at last! A female character with realistic proportions!"   8)  Mind, one of my other characters went around in a thong, so I'm not completely off the hook.
I've always said it's easy to spot the 14 year-old boys playing female characters in an MMO - they're the ones running around with max-slider breasts wearing bikinis.   :)

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #167 on: December 12, 2012, 01:02:11 AM »
LOL...there was SO much of that in the early days of the game...the original female mesh had the 'gumdrops' on the chestal area. That was changed around Issue 2 or 3, but you could still download the mod for the original mesh at Coldfront's for a while. There was still show-through on dark tops. (I have the pics saved, but won't post unless a lot of people want to see)
« Last Edit: December 12, 2012, 01:10:21 AM by healix »
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #168 on: December 12, 2012, 01:02:41 AM »
The one in the thong? "Dale Vultan?" A winged hawk-woman. If you look closely, you can see I achieved that look with the mesh pattern. Pink dots on yellow make flesh tone.


Some wag in the D dubbed her the "Flying Buttress."  ;D
« Last Edit: December 12, 2012, 01:08:57 AM by Colette »

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #169 on: December 12, 2012, 04:09:43 AM »
Just had kind of a hard moment. A friend, a good friend of mine, expressed complete disinterest in this entire movement. He spoke of how he just expected us all to just move on with life instead of dwelling and fighting the way we all are.

For the briefest of moments, I actually considered if I was in the wrong. Am I overreacting? Am I holding on too long? Should I just get over it and move on with my life?

It didn't take long for me to shake that off though, and remember why I'm doing what I'm doing. What I'm trying to save, and more than that, what point I'm trying to make to gaming companies and gaming communities. My friend spoke of accepting defeat and moving on, but... he's wrong. Because even though we haven't yet won, we will never lose. We have made an impact. We have made a difference... and, perhaps some time from now, when a company decides to shutter a game for less than valid reasons, they'll remember the Heroes. They'll remember our actions, they'll remember what we've been doing since August 31st, 2012... and maybe they'll reconsider.

Maybe, just maybe, even if we can't save our game, we can save someone elses. A game, a community we don't know. A community that doesn't know us. They'll never know we indirectly saved them. They'll never know that they came so close to the brink before the powers that be backed off, remembering what people who play their games are capable of doing to their reputation, when they're wronged.

This is why I fight. It's not even about the game anymore, it's about people. I don't want anyone to have to feel what I felt, and still feel now.  In game, I may have primarily been a villain, but our actions since the announcement have been nothing short of heroic.

But we knew that. After all, this is what we do.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #170 on: December 12, 2012, 04:22:20 AM »
Perfidus, not everyone is going to 'get' why we love our City or why we want it back. This includes dear friends and even family.


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Maybe, just maybe, even if we can't save our game, we can save someone elses. A game, a community we don't know. A community that doesn't know us. They'll never know we indirectly saved them. They'll never know that they came so close to the brink before the powers that be backed off, remembering what people who play their games are capable of doing to their reputation, when they're wronged.


You know in your heart that what you are doing here matters. Be proud for taking a stand for us and others. I am proud to be in this community with you. 

Listen to the 'mustn'ts'. Listen to the 'don'ts'. Listen to the 'shouldn'ts', the 'impossibles', the 'won'ts'. Listen to the 'you'll never haves', then listen close to me... Anything can happen . Anything can be.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #171 on: December 12, 2012, 04:29:34 AM »
Perfidus, there's a reason he doesn't get it.  He still thinks City was "just a game."

City was never a game.

City was a town built around a theme park.  People were drawn to that town for a lot of reasons, and they stayed because of the other people in that town.  We went out, went to work, came home, and then we all went to the theme park.  Some of us were there every night, some just a couple nights a week, but it was always there.  The devs kept listening and making more rides that we liked, and the old rides were enough fun that it didn't matter if we'd ridden them 3 times or 33 times, we were always good for one more trip.  But we wouldn't have stayed if it hadn't been for the people.

Some wise religious man--and I completely forget who it was--once said "put yourself in the attitude of prayer, and prayer will come."  We put ourselves in "the attitude of heroes"--and we all became a little more heroic.  Maybe it was in raising money for charity.  Maybe it was in offering a stranger some inf or showing a newbie the ropes.  Maybe it was just taking the time to be kind to the kid at the drive-through window.  Maybe it was really going out of your way and outside your comfortzone in the real world to do something for someone else, like staying up all night to talk an SG-mate through some bad times.  Maybe it was chipping in to help someone with his bills.  Little things, not so little things...somehow, being heroes part time made us more heroic full-time.  And as we became more heroic, we liked each other more.

Our characters, our toons...even if you scoffed at RP, still, you put something of yourself into every toon you made, and you reacted to the missions and the content inside the skin of that toon.  For me, at least, being a writer, every one of the 60-odd characters I created was as, if not more, alive to me than the characters I create for books.  Some of them I spent more time with than any book character--even in a series, I normally don't spend more than a year inside the head of any one character.  I had characters whose skin I had shared for more than seven years.  I knew them better than most living humans in my life, and I bet some of you have the same experience.  Of course we knew them better than living people around us--that doesn't trivialize the people around us or make us crazy.  We created these characters, we know their thoughts, and short of developing telepathy, you can never know another live human as well as we can know our characters.  They're part of us; we're part of them.

So in one blow, we have lost our home--NCSoft just ran a bulldozer through it.  Friends are gone, scattered--we never thought for a moment that we wouldn't have the City to connect with them.  We've lost our social support net.

And we have lost "children" we know as well as we know ourselves, who are part of us--NCSoft has buried them in an unmarked grave.  We have no place to mourn but here, and no place to go but here.  There's no urn on the mantlepiece, no marker we can visit, and the murderers sit on the other side of the ocean and smirk and dismiss us as inconsequential children, easily distracted.

Cry.  Rage.  Cry some more.  I'm going to.

I'm also going to work.  I am not going to give up until the last possible way to bring back the City has been tried and has failed.  You have my word, for what it's worth.
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #172 on: December 12, 2012, 04:32:50 AM »
VV...you paint pictures with your words. Thank you for decorating my soul with your 'artwork'
Listen to the 'mustn'ts'. Listen to the 'don'ts'. Listen to the 'shouldn'ts', the 'impossibles', the 'won'ts'. Listen to the 'you'll never haves', then listen close to me... Anything can happen . Anything can be.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #173 on: December 12, 2012, 04:45:29 AM »
Yes. Thank you, VV. I may be in tears, but it's a very powerful feeling to know when you're understood, and that someone feels like you do, and they are capable of expressing your own feelings better than you yourself are.

And to you, healix. Thank you as well. Before joining Titan, I'll be honest, I didn't know most of you guys. But I was immediately accepted into the community. We understand each other, we have common ground... besides, come to think of it, I didn't join any community. This was already my community.

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #174 on: December 12, 2012, 05:03:54 AM »
"We put ourselves in "the attitude of heroes"--and we all became a little more heroic."

Does anyone remember Rod Serling's Twilight Zone? These people wore these masks...? Here!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-3VZPzQ1-M

Role-playing is like that. That is a part of why I prefer "superheroes" to the Robbers and Burrows games.

"He spoke of how he just expected us all to just move on with life instead of dwelling and fighting the way we all are."

For those of you who had to endure a uhm... bit of drama earlier today, I regret it. When the other party said something similar, that is what drove me over the edge! Y'see, if I was our adversary, the message I'd want to say over-and-over to the members of SaveCoH is, "just give up and move on." I now mistrust anybody who says that to us, so be warned.

It is a game, yes. It is a wonderful game! It is an ennobling and elevating game. So few of life's experiences are ennobling and elevating, and those few, we call "culture." We preserve culture and pass it on to our children, as the greatest share of our legacy and their birthright. Paragon City is culture.

To invert the evil Hanns Johst, when I hear word of someone destroying culture, I reach for my revolver.
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #175 on: December 12, 2012, 05:58:11 AM »
We put ourselves in "the attitude of heroes"--and we all became a little more heroic.

This. This, this, this. Like, +1, everything.
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #176 on: December 12, 2012, 07:17:30 AM »
"We put ourselves in "the attitude of heroes"--and we all became a little more heroic."

Perfectly stated!  CoX inspired us to be better than who we believe ourselves to be.
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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #177 on: December 12, 2012, 04:06:19 PM »
"We put ourselves in "the attitude of heroes"--and we all became a little more heroic." - VV

If I had a twitter account, i'd tweet that.   That is something I only recall thinking four times in the past year, so you're probably on to something.

Heck, that's the kind of thing you'd want to see as a tagline on a book jacket to pull someone in.  xD

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #178 on: December 13, 2012, 12:06:16 AM »
Tweeting that quote now!

I need to.

I got my first video done and now the deprivation hit me in all it's grave force.

Need to find something to do for tomorrow, or... all there is, is work and my two devils  :'(

Or ...amybe I should go and do what I intended to do after COH: Read!

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Re: How are you handling the loss?
« Reply #179 on: December 13, 2012, 12:25:29 AM »
I tweeted it too. :)