I waited so long to watch your video because I pretty much knew how it would make me feel. It broke my heart all over again, just as NCSoft's announcement did on August 31st, 2012. It also made me angry all over again, just as I was after that same announcement, and reminded me why I'm fighting so hard to try and save CoH. Because it doesn't deserve to go away yet.
In the slightly more TMI category on this topic...
For the last month and a half I've been thinking from time to time why the sunsetting makes me so sad. I had to really, really think about it, because occasionally I wonder if maybe those people who are easily shrugging it off have a more realistic perspective that I'm not allowing myself to have. I came to the conclusion that what I'll miss most, the part that makes it so sad for me, is the thought of not *being there*.
Let me explain that a little more. A lot of the time, I log into CoH and just leave it on, so even when I'm working and can't really play, I can still talk to people. And occasionally, someone would pop up that I haven't seen in weeks, or months, or even years, sending me a tell out of the blue. I'd talk to them for a while, try to add them to the latest global channels so they have incentive to come back and talk again. Sometimes for hours, the backdrop of Paragon City keeping us company, sometimes pretty late when most players have logged off. This even happened after the sunset announcement once or twice.
And that's what I thought about (once again) when I watched your video. That after CoH is gone, I won't *be there* anymore. I'll be playing other games and wondering where all of those people I hadn't spoken to in ages have gone, knowing that aside from some crazy twist of fate, I'll probably never find them again.
