It's hard to go back to waiting, but I guess that's what I have to do.
I don't have coding skills. I wasn't a social butterfly on my home server, so I had no idea any private server even existed. (This isn't me fishing for a PS invite. I'll either find one my wife and I can join, or I won't, and in the meantime we'll keep bouncing around games with our small CoH cadre, trying to find something that feels a little like home.) I missed out on most of the weekend.
But I got a few glorious hours last night, and by the end, my hands had remembered things about how I played the game that I'd forgotten, and it all felt so natural, and I kept saying things like, "I'd forgotten how nice it was to call contacts," and "Oh, look, missions where you don't have to walk back to the door." And I found new badges, and tried a little of a new powerset, and stayed up way too late. I crafted an IO. I miss crafting IOs.
And for a little while, I was as happy as I've been in a while.
So I'll go back to waiting, and checking the forums, and when there's anything I can do (*if* there's anything I can do), I'll do it.
Thanks to everyone who made this happen, and who gave so many of us a few hours of happiness over the past weekend. It was a flavor of happiness I hadn't remembered, and didn't expect, and it's not something I'm ever going to take for granted.