So, I finally decided to join Titan (admittedly quite late) after someone from the CoH community with whom I had gotten in touch suggested I do so. As someone who has been silently reading the forums on an almost daily basis, it seemed like a logical next step. But boy, do I feel late - kind of like that guy who shows up when the battle's already been won and is like "wha'd I miss?"
With all of the posts I've read about people missing CoH, I spent a lot of time obtaining a kind of strange comfort from knowing I wasn't alone, as I have missed this game (especially lately, and
very suddenly) with a longing that borders on (and often translates to) the physical. I thought maybe I ought to take the next step and become a part of the community that has fostered such love for the game, and continues to fight for it even after its closure.
I for one have realized exactly how not ready to let go I am. I've been playing with icon (thank youuuu!), which has been both fun and intensely emotional... I was anxiously awaiting psionic melee and the martial arts powersets for blasters for AGES. And on that vein it had been nice to see blasters and... well... everything get fixed. I've also gone online to look up the soundtrack. I obsessively read Paragon wiki and some of the interviews where the devs dished on what had been coming next. I'm even writing a fanfic to post on my deviantart account, which has been a catharsis in and of itself.
I guess, for me, the grieving just began this week, and I was shocked to finally realize the depth of my feelings of loss.
That's all I wanted to say as far as sad stuff goes. However, I know that this is how we are
all feeling right now, and is why I've decided to join this community in full. I am not here to be a perpetual sad sack (though some sad sackery might slip in now and then; particularly now, it seems), but to say hello! how can I help? what can
I do to serve
you today?
I am really excited about joining Titan at long, long last.
