I have a tumbling mass of thoughts and feelings to express, but they're all converging at the thin pass at once and obstructing each of them from getting through and being expressed by myself adequately...
And/or - I've got a million things to say, but can't choose which one to start with...
:P :o :roll:
First off... I've been somewhat absent for a couple of weeks (I know, I know, none of you noticed... s'okay... *I* did).
There are a number of reasons for that, which I might get to before I hit "Post". ;D
What I will say right now is just that it bothers me, because I want to be here and want to be a part of this community and enjoy the continuation of a great thing that we had over there and make/continue something great together here. So, I've missed you all (well, most of you!). ;)
Also, I think my habits of going to the CoH forums first won't break until they're gone and/or November 30th. And I haven't had the time for both, recently.
And I just recently found some time to visit those forums... and, man... that's what's got me perturbed right now, heh. It's just annoying... frustrating... saddening... seeing every single thread that mentions anything about NCSoft or about any efforts to continue doing what we loved turn into repeat offenders restating (over and over) their negative opinions of us, of emulators, of our chances, of the price of tea... blah blah, bleepity BLAH!
I just vented a bit over there. I don't regret it, hehe... and it is quite tame anyway. It's just that I never put anyone on ignore over there for all my time there... but I feel like I probably should have after August 31st.
The nasty unicornish internet jockeys, self-apointed NCSoft Hall Monitors came out of the woodworks and made that place far less fun for me... And I know this is my fault...
"Nothing's gonna change my world... Nothing's gonna change my world"
Still... I can step outside of myself and continue to agree that, "Hey, it's understandable to have gotten annoyed by them!". :D
Anywho... For those of you who are still reading... THANKS!
(For those that aren't... You're nothing but tuna-brained snotpickers. Believe me, I would have said the same thing even if they could read this) :P
Why am I posting this? Well, besides a few serious notes about my regret in not being able to do a few things around here that I wanted to, I figured I'd come here and share my thoughts as this is a place I intend to hang out eventually... so, why not offer a little bit of me and see what happens.
I stayed a little more at arm's reach (or way beyond that actually) during my time in CoH and, once the news fell, I felt like sharing more and the more I did, the more I realized how much I truly loved and enjoyed hanging out with this community. So, I plan on being a lot more expressive here (in kind and respectful ways... don't worry) and hoping to really share things more openly, beyond my forum avatar... allow people to know me personally (without forcing it unnaturally or unwantedly, I hope, hehe!).
Don't worry, I'm married and loyal and all that, so I'm not here as a singles' pickup hangout (just a swinger's hangout instead... KIDDING).
Umm...
So, just to finish up (and thank you to those very few who have bothered to continue reading his far... and to those who stopped, we won't tell them about my secret prize that we'll all share and won't give any to them... shhhh)...
I live in New York and was planning to attend the NY Comic Con and my wife and I were talking about what we would do beyond handing out fliers and such... But, unfortunately, I was overtaken by a nasty head cold that just wouldn't go away and I didn't make it out at all.
I have chronic sinus problems (the experts suggest surgery, but they may alter my voice and I am a singer, so it's a tricky thing...) and when I get a cold, unfortunately, it can (and often does) last ridiculous lengths of time. Seriously, it had me for a month.
I didn't cave in and do nothing, but heading out to the comic con to talk and pass out fliers just was out of the question... because I was using any energy I did have to do the other things that I am busy with in my life - writing, recording, performing as a musician and trying to survive as your morbidly happy starving artist! :o ;D :o
LASTLY (for real, this time)... This whole mess of NCSoft firing PS and shutting down the game came at an exceptionally bad time for me (for me to be as active as I wish in our efforts), as I am madly busy and preoccupied with writing, planning and producing the most important artistic endeavor of my life. So, yeah... there's that too. :-[
Anyway, not like I wasn't spending a good amount of time and effort after August 31st to keep things moving, but I did fall off a bit (still been sticking around to jump to action here and there and donate what I can when called for... woohoo, way to go with the Extra Life!).
Post-Lastly, thank you for reading... here is an ever-lasting gobstopper. Now, let's see what this button does!
I've never been very active on the official forums (I think I might have posted there maybe three times in seven years ;) ), I dropped by yesterday and it was a bit jarring. Compared to here where everyone is very supportive (even when coming up with counter-points or criticism) I came away feeling entirely disheartened.
It's ok, though. It isn't really about 'winning' anymore, it's about doing the right thing. I think it's wrong to close down a game that was popular and believed to be profitable, and make 80 people redundant in the process, and then refuse to tell the people who have been paying you for however many years why. I think it's wrong to lie to customers.
If you've got to lose a fight, it's easier to take as long as you know you fought as hard as you could and did yourself proud.
I'm not delusional enough to think we will win, but I believe in this cause enough to know that it's worth fighting for, and that I want to be a part of whatever happens next. The people here propped me up when I was in bits, they stopped me feeling alone for being sad, and they helped me understand I wasn't the only person who was passionately invested in a virtual world. It was a wonderful thing for me to learn.
So I'm not going to go back to the official forums, because they depress me, and I'm going to keep trying to help, because it's the right thing to do.
Like yourself, I didn't really tend to interact with people outside of my own SG when in City of Heroes. It is sad to me that I've met more 'game' people since they announced the closure of COH than I did for the rest of my time in game. With only one or two exceptions, the new people I have met have been wonderful.
If people don't want to fight, that's fine. I can understand that.
But they really don't have any reason to hassle the people who are still fighting and I don't understand why they would want to do that.
Good luck with the artistic endevour!
It's okay, E-K... I stopped reading those forums for that exact reason. It seems when Zwill finally departed, the underbridge-living nemeses of billy goats everywhere came out of their hidey holes.
No worries. My participation has dropped severely. Goodluck on your RL creative endeavors!
I never been active on those forums either. I think I touched on the same points as EK in my very first post here and the reason I kind of left the old forum alone.
Yeah, I hardly ever pop into the official forums any more. There area few people who have decided to take whatever opportunities they can to basically tell everyone that is fighting to save the game that they're being stupid. It's sad, really.
I think (hope, since the official forums won't be around much longer) that most people who actually have an interest in the game have migrated here.
I saw you posted in there. You've got a thicker skin than I, TonyV :)
Quote from: TonyV on October 26, 2012, 06:10:48 PM
Yeah, I hardly ever pop into the official forums any more. There area few people who have decided to take whatever opportunities they can to basically tell everyone that is fighting to save the game that they're being stupid. It's sad, really.
I think (hope, since the official forums won't be around much longer) that most people who actually have an interest in the game have migrated here.
Stand firm Tony and keep doing your thing.
You cannot let them control you, your emotions, or feelings. If they want to be obstacles, let them. What happen to obstacles? You can either go over, around or through them or run them over. You can only lose if you let someone else stop you from doing what you are doing.
When Mr. Gates was trying to get Microsoft off the ground, plenty of people told him that he was nothing but a crazy geek chasing something that will never work. The few brave souls that believed in him are all millionaires and billionaires (the original investors of Microsoft back in 1975? time period and their pic is hanging around on the net). And the ones that tried bringing him down and tried to discourage him because they thought his idea was stupid, are probably somewhere kicking themselves because many of them he came to first and at that time even $100-$1,000 now would of had them very well off.
*sigh* if I could go back in time.
I mean even Ghandi had people that disliked him.