I understand the feelings of despair. They largely kept me from playing during the final months. I kinda regret not being able to push that aside and enjoy what I had for those last few weeks, but the hurt and outrage and the feeling of emptiness were too much to deal with. It was a long time before I could even browse the wiki without feeling angry or blue. It's taking all of us our own time to deal with our losses and the magnitude of the task ahead of us and decide how we want to push forward.
As for me, I'm holding on to hope, but I'm also moving forward.
I still hope we get the game back, in some form, in the relatively near future (even if we do have to be a little hush-hush about it). Further down the road, I hope that MWM comes through big and in a few years the big publishers are staring in horror at a successful MMO powered by something other than corporate greed. Beyond that, I hope that they inspire others to do the same and ten or twelve years from now, the idea that an indifferent corporation could pull the plug on a player community's world will be as archaic as the floppy disk. Community-driven galaxies, cities, fantasy kingdoms and cyberpunk dystopias, far as the eye can see. Maybe that's getting into wishful thinking, but I can hope.
Meanwhile, though, I'm kinda through with grieving. Not that I wouldn't hop in game and start kicking some Council tail in a heartbeat if I could, but I'm tired of being sad and angry about it. If I'm spending time and energy on the matter, I want it to be positive. The funeral clothes are back in the closet. Either I'm reminiscing with a smile, or posting screenshots to remind people of how great CoH could be, or perhaps working with one of the recovery efforts (got some free time, finally).
I still haven't found a new MMO that has stuck yet, though I might try again sometime in the future. If I do, it won't be an NCSoft product. Not that I'm still filled with seething rage or think that anyone in Korea cares about my personal boycott, but the way that they manage their games is incompatible with what I want from an MMO, so I'm not going to shop there again. Nothing against those who do. These days, I'm spending the money I would have spent on CoH on some classic Steam games and I'm having a blast with it. FTL, Galactic Civ II, I've been on a space kick this last month or two. It's amazing how much game you can get for five bucks these days.
And, of course, I keep drifting back in here during my breaks at work, to savor the little bits of good news and to draw a little inspiration when things seem bleak and so that, when the big day finally comes, we can celebrate together.